Ugh. It really sucks feeling like you have the flu, yet you can’t take anything to make it better. Hell, I can’t even take an advil to get rid of the headache. I wake up in the middle of the night with these horrible hot flashes. I mean, it’ll get better eventually (these are common side effects), but it might take up to a few weeks, and that’s not cool. Oh well, I guess I just have to deal with it.

So, I finally got to see a shrink. Dr. Mumtaz is pretty cool. I spent an hour with him, got a thorough evaluation, and was percribed Lexapro. I’ve never really been on any meds, so I am a little nervous about it. I’m feeling great because I finally have some validation that what I am feeling is an actual medical condition, and not something that’s “just in my head.” So now I am a certified nutcase. j/k
I’ll be keeping track of what this stuff does to me. Oh, and get this! He said that he recommends me quitting my job ASAP. He said if Matt and I were to be OK on his salary until I found something new, that would be best. He said the anxiety attacks will go away if I am somewhere else. Again, I like validation!!

WTF. Why can I give a million and one ideas to people, but when it comes to myself, I’ve got nothing. I’ve been working on business stuff, trying to get a website out there so I can get more clients, but when it comes to designing it, I’ve run out of steam. In a fit of inspiration I FINALLY came up with a logo that I LOVE, and a temporary business card that I dig, but when I want to put something online, I’m all out. I really wish I could just pay someone to do it, but then I feel like I’m copping out, because a “real” designer should be able to come up with something on their own. Ugh. I just need to have someone here to bounce ideas off of.
You know, I should really post some examples of my work, although I doubt that you guys would be interested in seeing baby announcements. 🙂

First, let me start off with a random thought: Damn, I LOVE Penny Arcade. 😀

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