Ugh….I feel like crap. When it’s not the headaches, it’s dizziness. Well, that’s not completely accurate. Basically, I feel “out of it.” It’s slightly difficult to concentrate, but it is possible. Matt and I had an early dinner today at Qdoba, and when I got home, I felt awful. It wasn’t nausea though. I am thinking it might have to do with the caffeine I’ve been drinking. It seems like every time I drink a Dr. Pepper, I feel like crap afterwards. Looks like it’s time to give it up…. 🙁
I *really* need to get this house ready to sell. The first thing I need to do is to get a storage locker. That way I can put all of the stuff I don’t need at the moment in there, and get it out of the way. For example: I don’t need tubs with my Christmas decorations in my office closet. It’s just taking up space right now. And, my parents convinced me to have a garage sale, so I am going to start boxing up things I want to sell and put that in storage as well. We need to get all of the crap out of this house.
Well, brand new Reno 911 is on in a few, so I’m off to watch some tv..

WHY does it go from 30 degrees to 80? I have lived in Missouri my whole life, and I should be used to this, but seriously! GAH! AND while it’ll be 80 all week, it’ll be storming. Stupid weather.

So, I have two pills of Lexapro left. And I haven’t even taken tonight’s dosage, so tomorrow will be my last. I’ve taken over 2 and a half months to wean off of it, which is a good thing. When you try to stop anti-depressants quickly, your body does NOT like it. While I’ve had the occasional headache, and my sleeping pattern has changed slightly, I’d say I’ve done pretty good.
Now, I’ll be honest; I am TERRIFIED of what may happen once I stop completely. I NEVER want to go back to how I was before. I don’t want to spend days at a time in bed. I don’t want to cry at the drop of a hat. I don’t want to start having anxiety attacks. This time last year, I was a total mess. I remember talking to the doctor, TRYING to sound normal. When I wasn’t lethargic, I was nervous. It sucked.
Apparently the photo lab is looking for a new supervisor. I refuse to even think about it. I know the money would be REALLY good, and it would make our financial situation better, but I just can’t do it. I think it reminds me too much of a time when I was messed up. I do miss the people that I worked with, but all of them have since quit anyways. They’ve all had babies.
Anyhooo….we’ll see how this goes.

I must say…Claritin D is the shit!